I'm tracking my progress as an artist including insights, inspirations, U turns (getting stuck or blocked creatively), and my overall daily experiences painting.

On Seeing

| 29 December, 2011 12:10

 

I painted all day today.  I've been working on another in my series of painting my grandchildren.  The reason for choosing this particular idea stems from my attempts at painting a series of Mother and Child a few years ago.  When I took the first two paintings in that aborted series to the owner of a gallery in Ruidoso, N.M., he was disappointed. He'd seen some paintings I'd done of my family and those were the ones he was looking forward to hang in his gallery.  "You do so much better," he said, "when you work with intimate subjects."


He did sell one of those paintings I took to him, but his words kept lingering in my mind.  Over the next several years I took pictures of my grandchildren as they grew, and I had quite a collection by the time I decided on painting a new series.  I had grown tired of rendering landscapes, so I pulled all those pictures out.  I dove in and started with the one I'd wanted to paint the most.  It was a picture I'd taken while Delaney and I were playing by the river as her Dad and sister jogged on the trail.  She'd picked up a piece of dried up wood, holding it like it was her long-lost friend, wearing my daughter's jacket because it was colder than her Dad had anticipated, coming to Albuquerque from Phoenix, and it swam on her.  You can see that painting in my gallery. It's the one named Delaney.


I'm on the 6th painting in that series.  It's a close up of Delaney and her sister, Madison.  It's the largest painting I've done in this series, 30" X 40".  The heads  are twice the size of a normal head.  Although I did do a large head before, I've never done two large heads in a painting before.  As a result of having more space in which to paint the details, it does require more SEEing.  By that I mean, when I work on something smaller, I can get away with suggesting a detail such as the corner of the eye, but when working on something at closer range, it requires SEEing more. It requires the ability to Know exactly the curvature of a line of the eye that normally isn't SEEN.


Which brings me to the point I want to make about my experience with painting.  Many years ago I took a workshop with Charles Reid.  We painted from a model each day.  I was used to short poses and longer ones, up to 3 hours long.  On this particular day, Charles had the model take up the same pose after lunch we'd been working on all morning.  He encouraged us to stay in the same location and continue working on the same painting I thought I'd finished. "How", I wondered, "am I going to see anything else to paint on the image I've been working on?"  I was sure I'd captured all I needed and wanted for the painting.


The experience turned out to be extraordinary and amazing.  I realized the more I looked, the more I SAW.  Looking is not SEEing.  SEEing is feeling more.  It is taking time to compare what looking is to SEEing below the surface.  It's what I'm experiencing now in this larger painting.  Each time I take a break, I come back with fresh eyes, and SEE what I was missing before.  It's always something that answers the question, "How do I resolve this area that I don't like?"  It's the magical answer to what's been troubling you about some part of the painting.  It's the miracle you've been looking for.  SEEing is Believing you're invincible. 


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Sorry, i'm shy in fact. I don't want ennoy you..I'm graduated from eioglbn's school in paris and I'm trying since one year to get the mail from the responsable recruitment from sony and warner bros in animation(i was in annecy for the "open season" conference). I don't arrive to get contact to work in animation(or game development if there is opportunities here).I will ty to find it on tne next annecy ^^ I asked me if you were french and how you get started in animation domain. Sorry for my english and thanks for your blog! :)

Hullo Tracy.What a lovely painting... and I see you got the idea from the first photo two days ago.. the lovey bright pinky flowrs on the bottom half of the photo.Oh, and I recognise the COSMOS!!!!! yeah!! We get them growing wild here, up country. Fields and fields of them. The colour depends on the minerals in the soil. Ours goes from white to a mid pink, to a lovely candy pink, not not as dark as yours. How do you find time to garden with all the paintings you have to do?? Such a clever girl she is.Tereza.

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Hullo Tracy.What a lovely painting... and I see you got the idea from the first photo two days ago.. the lovey bright pinky flowrs on the bottom half of the photo.Oh, and I recognise the COSMOS!!!!! yeah!! We get them growing wild here, up country. Fields and fields of them. The colour depends on the minerals in the soil. Ours goes from white to a mid pink, to a lovely candy pink, not not as dark as yours. How do you find time to garden with all the paintings you have to do?? Such a clever girl she is.Tereza.

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Mrs. Baird was the one who had paid to have the marble sidewalks put in but she had been a silly woman if she hadnt thought about the fact that marble was marvelous to roller skate on, and bike on, and draw on with chalk.Arabella loved the sidewalks on Spruce Lane and had vowed that one day she would own them. And now she did. She had, in fact, bought Mrs. Bairds house. It was a small house, tucked back from the road and surrounded by a dense pine woods. It was a pale yellow, a sunwashed color, that seemed to glow even on the dreariest days, although on days like today when the sunlight was watery and weak and storm clouds filled the sky, the house absorbed the light, taking it in, storing it up for the darker days of winter.She loved her house, the lace curtains in the window, the prim front yard. Her house was like she was, private, a little plain at first glance but once she let anyone inside, then it was a completely different landscape. The backyard ran riotous as English Garden flowers competed with masses of wildflowers that crowded the herbs and vegetables that tried to climb up the fruit trees. Where there was no room to plant things in the ground she had hung pots and stacked containers full of every flower, herb or vegetable that was known to grow in a Northwest Pacific zone and a few that werent supposed to.She turned up the front walk of Number 3 Spruce Lane, home again. She opened her door, and set her shopping bag inside on the deacons bench and stooped to pick up the mail from the floor. As soon as she had opened the door, she heard the harsh haw behind her. She looked at the clock over on the wall. 4:15 p.m. She had to give him that, he was always on time. She knew that she had 15 minutes and there would be 200 crows clamoring for their supper.But this one, she knew him. One day in the early summer she had turned up Spruce Lane and had been greeted by a deafening roar as every crow in the state seemed to be lining the telephone lines, roof tops and fences. As she hurried towards her house wondering what had upset them so much, she saw why they were upset. A young crow had somehow landed on the fence, not gotten a firm perch and had slide down so his neck was caught between two fence palings. He had been beating his wings against the fence and scrabbling with his claws because there were gouges in the wood and blood on the paint.When she saw him and ran towards him, the crows, who had been screaming bloody murder suddenly as one voice stopped. The silence was eerier than the screaming had been. She could see that he had exhausted himself and was simply hanging there. Even though he was young, he was still a large bird and he had a strong looking beak but Arabella knew that the crows were expecting her to do something. After all, wasnt she the one that had fed them through the harshest winter in 20 years? 40 pounds of cat food a week as well as scraps from the butcher and leftover vegetables from the school cafeteria where she worked as librarian.So Arabella had walked slowly up to him, talking nonsense in as soothing a voice as she could. Then taking off the scarf from her head, she wrapped it around his wings. There was nothing to be done but just do it and she reached over the other side of the fence and putting her hand just under that hard black beak, she very carefully lifted him up, one hand under his head, the other under his body by his claws. He did not struggle. It still amazed her that he had known that she was trying to help.After she had lifted him free, she carried him around to the back deck, with what seemed like 450 crows silently following them. She had placed him on the wooden deck and unwrapped the scarf. She wasnt sure what to do next. She thought that if she took him inside or tried to take him to the vets there would be a re-enactment of The Birds, and she looked nothing like Tippy Hedren and hopefully crows were smarter than sea gulls. After a minute of sitting there, another crow flew down to him, from the soft quarking that it was crooning, Arabella thought it might be one of his parents. After the other crow had smoothed a few of his feathers and talked to him, they suddenly both flew up onto the roof.But after that, he would come sit on the ground while she was working in her garden and every afternoon he always showed up 15 minutes earlier than the others. Sometimes he would talk to her, a couple of times he had dropped leaves and once a shiny pebble on her. Arabella just figured that it was his way of saying thank you and that she was now a member of the family. And sometimes she tossed peanuts or other tasty tidbits back at him.As she closed the front door into her private world, she heard the sound of a murder in her backyard. And again, for the bzillioneth time she thought how much she loved her little home on Spruce Lane.

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It was a late afternoon in autumn. One of those days that you could walk outside and smell the rich, smoky haze of burning leaves and the crisp tang of ripening apples and pumpkins with the faint acrid taste of faded roses and earthy mushrooms providing a little depth to the seasons perfume.Arabella slowly shuffled down the sidewalk towards her house. She knew that if anyone was watching, they would assume that she was simply an elderly arthritic woman making her way home after a day at the Senior Center.If they only knew, she snorted to herself.The sidewalks on lining either side of Spruce Lane were marble and Arabella was sliding her feet along the marble, marveling at the satiny smoothness under her feet. As a child she had roller skated up and down these sidewalks much to the chagrin of Mrs. Baird who would chase her down to the next block waving a broom and shouting that Arabella was a hoyden, a terror and a bad girl who would come to no good end. Mrs. Baird was the one who had paid to have the marble sidewalks put in but she had been a silly woman if she hadnt thought about the fact that marble was marvelous to roller skate on, and bike on, and draw on with chalk.Arabella loved the sidewalks on Spruce Lane and had vowed that one day she would own them. And now she did. She had, in fact, bought Mrs. Bairds house. It was a small house, tucked back from the road and surrounded by a dense pine woods. It was a pale yellow, a sunwashed color, that seemed to glow even on the dreariest days, although on days like today when the sunlight was watery and weak and storm clouds filled the sky, the house absorbed the light, taking it in, storing it up for the darker days of winter.She loved her house, the lace curtains in the window, the prim front yard. Her house was like she was, private, a little plain at first glance but once she let anyone inside, then it was a completely different landscape. The backyard ran riotous as English Garden flowers competed with masses of wildflowers that crowded the herbs and vegetables that tried to climb up the fruit trees. Where there was no room to plant things in the ground she had hung pots and stacked containers full of every flower, herb or vegetable that was known to grow in a Northwest Pacific zone and a few that werent supposed to.She turned up the front walk of Number 3 Spruce Lane, home again. She opened her door, and set her shopping bag inside on the deacons bench and stooped to pick up the mail from the floor. As soon as she had opened the door, she heard the harsh haw behind her. She looked at the clock over on the wall. 4:15 p.m. She had to give him that, he was always on time. She knew that she had 15 minutes and there would be 200 crows clamoring for their supper.But this one, she knew him. One day in the early summer she had turned up Spruce Lane and had been greeted by a deafening roar as every crow in the state seemed to be lining the telephone lines, roof tops and fences. As she hurried towards her house wondering what had upset them so much, she saw why they were upset. A young crow had somehow landed on the fence, not gotten a firm perch and had slide down so his neck was caught between two fence palings. He had been beating his wings against the fence and scrabbling with his claws because there were gouges in the wood and blood on the paint.When she saw him and ran towards him, the crows, who had been screaming bloody murder suddenly as one voice stopped. The silence was eerier than the screaming had been. She could see that he had exhausted himself and was simply hanging there. Even though he was young, he was still a large bird and he had a strong looking beak but Arabella knew that the crows were expecting her to do something. After all, wasnt she the one that had fed them through the harshest winter in 20 years? 40 pounds of cat food a week as well as scraps from the butcher and leftover vegetables from the school cafeteria where she worked as librarian.So Arabella had walked slowly up to him, talking nonsense in as soothing a voice as she could. Then taking off the scarf from her head, she wrapped it around his wings. There was nothing to be done but just do it and she reached over the other side of the fence and putting her hand just under that hard black beak, she very carefully lifted him up, one hand under his head, the other under his body by his claws. He did not struggle. It still amazed her that he had known that she was trying to help.After she had lifted him free, she carried him around to the back deck, with what seemed like 450 crows silently following them. She had placed him on the wooden deck and unwrapped the scarf. She wasnt sure what to do next. She thought that if she took him inside or tried to take him to the vets there would be a re-enactment of The Birds, and she looked nothing like Tippy Hedren and hopefully crows were smarter than sea gulls. After a minute of sitting there, another crow flew down to him, from the soft quarking that it was crooning, Arabella thought it might be one of his parents. After the other crow had smoothed a few of his feathers and talked to him, they suddenly both flew up onto the roof.But after that, he would come sit on the ground while she was working in her garden and every afternoon he always showed up 15 minutes earlier than the others. Sometimes he would talk to her, a couple of times he had dropped leaves and once a shiny pebble on her. Arabella just figured that it was his way of saying thank you and that she was now a member of the family. And sometimes she tossed peanuts or other tasty tidbits back at him.As she closed the front door into her private world, she heard the sound of a murder in her backyard. And again, for the bzillioneth time she thought how much she loved her little home on Spruce Lane.

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